What If It Never Happens For Me?

I'm laughing at funny reels on Instagram,

I'm smiling at the girlhood of women who have no idea I exist,

I'm admiring the pinteresty photoshoots of random couples,

And I'm feeling so happy for them,

That it makes me so sad,

For being so alone,

For having to feel happiness from so far away,

Almost scared,

Because what if I only get to enjoy their happiness,

And never get to live my own fairytale moments,

What if it never happens for me?