April Lessons

Thing I realized/learnt in April:

• writing is still difficult and i don't really know what to do about it

• i want to give myself everything i want but i am scared that uncontrollable things will ruin it for me

• i want to get away for a short break

• i am tired.

• i don't like to make decisions.

• i don't find anyone interesting to talk to on consecutive days.

• i don't want to talk to anyone.

• i want to scream.

• i miss the ocean and beach.

• i miss the mountains.

• i miss the version of me who wrote amazing poems.

• what the hell i am doing in life?

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