Glimpse But Not

I see you first,

After days that turned into months,

Did you long for me too?

You turn slow,

To look at me a little more,

Did I want to look at you too?

Yes, I did,

But, no, I didn't,

Why do I avoid your eyes,

Why don't I smile?

Why am I such a mess?

Why do you find me all the time?