Not Running Away

The only thought that's been bubbling in my mind since an hour is,

One day I'll run away,

One day I won't have to face this,

One day I will be so so so far away from all this nonsense,

But you know what I'm doing right now?

Or going to do in the next few days, weeks, months, years?

Not run away,

At least not from my feelings,

Which often get crushed,

Despite trying not to keep or raise expectations,

But more than me deciding to not run away,

I know, I can't,

I know it won't be possible,

I know it won't happen given all the circumstances,

No, they won't just make me strong,

They'll break me apart,

Leave me alone,

To fend for my own broken pieces,

All over again,

And yet,

I will build myself,

With hope, courage and grit,

And pray that no one breaks me again.