What And How?

I must have gone through,

A hundred emotions sitting there,

In a sacred space as they say,

Where answers can be found,

But all I had complaints.

And requests in some way,

Without any answers,

And only hope to hold on,

Pushing the sadness away,

And putting a fake smile on.

Listening to others,

By quieting my thoughts down,

Where is everything going to lead us,

Despite losing my heart and mind now,

What's going to happen and how?