Things that I observed in January New year was just a change in dates for me, everything else felt same. I need to work on myself so much. I think I am not ready for a person yet. I think I don't have any space in my heart. I am scared. I wanted to run away, but, I stayed. Sometimes silently, sometimes violently. A stitch in time saves nine. Facts. I pushed myself for 31 more days than I thought I could. Damn. I realised my book needs another section. Socialization: 0. Social

Poetry book drafts, Sorted and edited in the mountains, Folded and kept in between other books, Away from the eyes of readers who want to read it all, Only to be kept in secret, Because I'm not ready for the world to see it yet, Maybe because it's not ready completely yet.

I've so much to do, So much to say, So much to write, So much to talk. Without anyone, To help, To hear, To read, To listen.

I recently read something on the internet and it made me pause, "neither of us would call, but i know both of us would answer" This didn't just make me pause, It made me implement it in my life today. I have stopped my self from making a move, For reasons citing "protection of my heart" Yet, I replied instantly, When I could see your name in the notification bar. Funny how life gave a theory and practical experience so quickly, so brilliantly.

You wanted different, That's why it feels so lonely right now. Lonely, not because there's no one, there are so many people who are supporting you to grow in this new phase. Yet, it feels so lonely, so detached, so far from everything and everyone. You are leveling up. Keep going. And, remember, you're not really lonely. Look around.

Note to self: You don't search for serendipity. Serendipity finds you.

Fear has engulfed me right now, And I'm drowning in the thoughts, About things I cannot control. So, here, B R E A T H E. inhale, exhale. It's all going to work out for me. Everything is being taken care of. I am okay. Everything will be okay.

Aaj baat toh hui hai, Par aadhi si, Baaton waali baat nahi, Upar upar wali si. Aaj raaste badal toh liye hai, Par mudke wapas gaye toh hai, Door tak nahi, Thoda door tak hi sahi.

I'm asked questions, In search of answers, opinions and suggestions, I'm expected to know, give and have ideas, To figure it all out. This, tires me, I don't think they understand that, Maybe because they haven't realized how much energy it takes, To answer, give opinions, suggest the right things, To figure it all out, for them. But, I get tired, I don't think they understand that, I have questions to be answered too, I need opinions too, I need suggestions too, But, all I h

Not a minute to spare, I still thought of you, Looking for a familiar face, In the chaos of my thoughts, too, Not a minute to spare, I will now dream of you.

Something clear and merciless, Finding each other randomly at all places, Like the sky meets the sea somewhere, Like the morning meets midnight, Like the air meets your lips, Like your lips meet mine.

There's dirt piling up on the side of the roads, Making it almost an impossible city to walk in, While the dry leaves of the trees, Don't feel romantic enough to me now, Where's all the tax payers money going, Because there are still roads broken at random intervals, Why do they remember the cables, Right before monsoons, oh! When one area's roads get fixed, The next one area is a damsel in distress, Where's all the tax payers money going, Who's the city's mistress? The only