There's not a pit in my stomach, It's an entire valley, Deeper than the ocean, And I only drown in the grief it contains.

Drifting in and out of sleep, Every minute feeling like a century, Every turn hugging the bed close, Every breathe just falling deeper, As I drift in and out of sleep.

Life, again, feels like it's paused, Just for me, And everyone else is running at full speed, In their lives, Away and far from me, Ahead and away from me, Far and ahead from me, Without looking back, Even once. i have to leave this place.

They tell me to not worry, And worry I don't do, They ask me if I'm happy, I haven't been happy in a minute or two, They say we were meant to meet, Then leave for we have done our work, They say we'll meet again, In some other universe, They say I'm going to be lucky, Can't wait to be luckier more.

I've been distracted by the sky, 368292 time today, For it is filled with cumulus clouds all over, Along with the majestic mountain in front of my window, All waiting for the westerlies to do it's magic, And bring monsoon over the barren slopes, Along with the entire city that awaits, For the first rain of the season desperately.

There's a resturant downstairs, With a traditional style tandoor, And a young boy in front of it, All night, until the service ends. With the temperatures on the higher end, Even after the sun sets, I see him in front of a tandoor, Stamping rotis and naans inside it, While I stand in my balcony, Staring at the dark sky with white clouds, Complaining about how hot it is and when will rain arrive. And, he, there, stands, In front of a tandoor making sure no roti or naam is char

The doors seem open, Yet closed at the same time, Where am I supposed to go, Or stay here, again, for another time, The roads go far and away always, They call me yet stop me at the same time. what do i do? where do i go? should i stay? should i go?

I nip my lip a bit, To taste the iron dissolve in my mouth, Enough to remind me of your taste, As you kiss me.

My head throbs, Like it has a heartbeat, But only the right side, The left side feels numb, And overworked. My head is cold, Like it is being frozen, But only the left side, The right side throbs, Like it has a heartbeat.

Meri maa puchti hai ki, "Kyu jaana hai?" Kyunki agar mai nahi gayi toh mai yahin ghut-ghut kar mar jaungi, Issi kamre ki chaar diwaari mein chinwa di jaungi, Tehravi manzil ki khidki si aankho par patti baandkar kood jaungi, Nahi gayi toh kabhi phir nahi ja paungi, Nahi gayi toh yaha rehkar kya hi kar jaungi, Nahi gayi toh fir mai aage kaise jaungi, Nahi gayi toh mai pagal ho jaungi, Nahi gayi toh fir mai apne aap ko sheeshe mein dekh bas roti jaungi, Nahi gayi toh fir aise k

Last night I felt like I'm flapping my arms wildly as I drown in this existence of life, And this morning I read a quote that said, "if you feel like drowning, don't come back up without the pearl" So, that's exactly what I'm going to do, I'm going to get the pearl, Right from the bottom of the sea, Even when I'm drowning, Even when it looks impossible.

Mat kar saazishein mujhse ab khuda, Salah kabhi de de, Raasta kabhi asaani se dikha bhi de, Bhatak bhatak kar, Bedakhal se ho gaye hai, Apna kabhi koi mujhe bula bhi le.